Powerful

Yesterday's service was powerful for me.

First, I thought I was supposed to do media, so I went up to the booth, but Amy was already there taking care of it. Before I left, she told me about an affect Morgan had on someone's life.

Apparently, a couple of weeks ago, she felt the need to speak at Refuel about a good friend who had gotten into cutting, and how she had helped the friend deal with her feelings. Later that week, someone who heard her speak that night messaged Amy, wanting to talk. She said she had heard "that girl" speak about the subject at Refuel, and she had recently begun doing it to herself. Because of Morgan, this girl told someone, and was able to get the help she needed. Because of Morgan, not one, but two girls have been helped - possibly their lives were even saved! Of course, this brought me to tears when I told Morgan about the story Amy had told me, but darn that little booger already knew about it, and hadn't told me! The stinker!

Another, very powerful thing that happened during the service was just neat. I had been looking at Chiv as he spoke. He invited us to prayer, and I closed my eyes. You know how you see shapes when you close your eyes? Well, I saw the very distinct shape of a cross! I soon realized that it was because of the cross on the altar, which Chiv was standing next to, but I had not really noticed it there until I closed my eyes, as the gold cross blended into the light wood paneling behind it!

During his sermon, Chiv told a story about his grandson Joshie, who threw a fit because someone else had the coat he wanted to wear. He refused to go on a walk with Daddy and Grandpa without his coat. Daddy gave him one last chance, standing in the doorway, and Joshie just wouldn't do it. The door closed, and Daddy and Grandpa left without him, and were sad. They were sad because he chose not to join them simply because he didn't have the coat he wanted. How many times have I refused God because I didn't "have the right stuff?" Now I know that God would never go off and leave me, but I know that I have made Him sad because of my choices. God, help me to let go of the things I'm holding on to so that I can experience Your glory to the fullest!